Congratulations!!!

Congratulations!!!
You've won
As you always do
Thank you for being what you've been
An illusion
A delusion 
Of MY life
Thank you for so many things
For coming back
For teasing
For frightening
For obscenity
For profanity
And day by day capturing
My brain
I dare not say,
My heart even
My fault?
No, I trusted
Knew, it will be broken
Still followed, why?
No answer
May be, was destined
So no repentance
Only more expressions
More poetry/prose
Thank you for showing 
your brighter part too
You write good poetry
Bad too
Why bad?
Why I expect you to be good
I should not
No right, still..
Should I apologize for certain things?
I think, I must
I should have known 
Still....
Now that you've chosen finally
I wish you good luck 
And Happy journey ahead
Still..
Why you created delusions for me?
Why you disturbed me?
Every time I've to pay high price
To be with you
Now,
I'll see my dreams burn
Right before me, ecstatically, jubilantly,
And I'll adore the scene
Each and every sin I've committed
I deserve such sentence
And so do you
Why people who're not meant to be 
part of your life?
Why do they come?
Why they haunt for the rest of days?
I've still to get my answers
Someday....
When God will send me on this earth
With All those qualities you desire
Unfortunately,
I'll wait till eternity
I'm sorry I lack nobility, the aristocracy, the gentry
I don't eat in silver spoons
Though yes,
I don't feel hungry 
Except for, your poetry 
Though, it's not meant for me
Nor you, for me
I walk along a path
Thinking I'm alone
Suddenly, I'm surrounded
By little angels, their mirth 
And their innocent laughter
I'm so lost in them
I try to forget you
Embracing them for the sake of love
Love, I've always been deprived of
I take from them
And they give in abundance
Without expecting any special qualities
They make me feel a complete woman
I'm their Mother
It's sufficient entity to 
Forgive n' forget you